Skincare is really difficult

I really hate trying to keep up with my skincare!

It's annoying to try and keep up with regularly. It's annoying to try and make sure I'm using the right stuff. You do one thing wrong and it all fucks up, and you spend more time reversing it than improving. 

Recently, the weather has been doing weird things and that's been affecting me. Philly is a lot dryer than where I grew up. For most of my life, I had weirdly waxy skin. Not dry, not oily, but a sinister third thing. My pores would be clogged with translucent waxy stuff, like blackheads without the actual dirt. Washing my face was actually difficult because I was repelling water, so I had a ritual of steaming my face down before I could start washing. 

This was all in the 2010s and people didn't gaf about skincare. BB cream had just hit the masses and people were completely painting their face completely matte and topping it with glitter from the craft shop. But now, in the modern era, I learned about a curious method from the east called "double cleansing".

When I was a teen in a humid valley, anything even slightly oily would give me whiteheads. Now that I'm older and I live in a different climate I flake. So I guess I need more help staying moistened like a snail, and the double cleanse helps with that massively.

I literally just swizzle some oil into my hand and pump some cleanser in, then mix them into a lathered emulsion. Apply this to a wet face and wash caveman style. 

My skin? squeaky clean. Hydrated. Moisturized. 

My pores? Unclogged. I haven't needed a pore strip in ages, the crumbs just fuck off.

I'm bouncy, smoothed, and thriving... Mostly.

SEO is a cruel cruel beast

If you've ever tried to make any sort of name for yourself on the internet, you'll understand how difficult it is to keep your head above the sea of endless posts. Google crawls so many websites with huge blogs of perfectly manufactured walls of text. Even on individual social medias, you have to fight against the armies of people with similar names and posts. 

Obviously, originality is key, but too much originality will put you on a desert island all alone with no followers. Keeping an eye on what's new and trendy will keep you associated with things that are currently being searched, but then you risk being seen as desperate for clout. And being seen as overly desperate is a death sentence. It's a pain, isn't it? 

When you google (or Bing) my name, I often only come up in 5-9th place. The results above me are all related to the anime Bleach!! When I started using the "Ichigo_42ga3" (and related) handles, Bleach wasn't running. Then it came back! Even worse, one of the songs the show uses is even called Monochrome! ARGH!!! How misfortunate! .·°՞(≧□≦)՞°·. ueeehh~ ueehhh~ 

Linking across my socials helps a ton though. Here's a tip: Every YouTube video is it's own page, and is indexed as so. Use that description box wisely!!! 

I'VE BEEN GONE FOR SO LONG AHHHHHHHHH!!!1

AHHHHHHHH!!! WHAT THE FAAAAHHHHHHHH–––––––!!!

    Okay, okay, okay. So I've been gone. It's fine. We're fine. It's not like I was on my ass doing nothing the whole time. I was bouncing between a bunch of different projects during my absence. Like uhhhhhh, some writing, some social stuffs, ermmmm, I drawed some, and did some 3d modeling, and you know... things.

    Okay jokes aside, I have been uploading to my YouTube channel. It's mostly just me talking/ranting about some things, but I do have some variety content planned for the future.

Here's the video I made criticizing Crunchyroll for how they run their shitty streaming service. Money grubbing POSs. 

    Making videos isn't as hard as it used to be for me, because I used to get so burnt out trying to figure out what the hell I'm doing. Talking isn't as hard for me anymore either. It comes a lot more naturally now, and I'm better at articulating my self. My voice doesn't get as hoarse after recording as it used to. It's a little difficult still, but I'm getting a lot better! I've even hit 200 subs!!!@! We're so back baby!!!!!!

All that is good, but I should really start going back and making posts for the stuff I was up to during the gap. Ehhhhhh but I'm still tired most of the time though... Why me???
    And I've been thinking about posting to other video sites to cross promote my content in more places. One of them being SpectraVideo on PeerTube, but I need preapproval to make an account there (to prevent spam). If I knew enough Japanese to subtitle my videos in Japanese, I could try posting to NicoNicoDouga, but I'm nowhere near that level yet...

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BORN TO DIE

WORLD IS A FUCK

苺 Kill Em All 2004

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sighing, rambling

Sometimes (a lot of times) I think about switching my whole "persona" (as if I really have one haha) and the aesthetic branding of the blog and YouTube and stuff. But honestly trying to overhaul everything would be really annoying. Besides, I can't change the URL of this blog page anyway.

Sigh. 

Although I cycle through the stuff I like every 3 months or so, so keeping it "up to date" would just be a drag. Blah Blah. TBH I spend a lot of my time bored, thinking about videos that I never wind up making. I also used to film a lot of videos that I never feel like finishing.

Most recently, I filmed a little "catch up" type video. Not much of a "catch up" though because I never have too much to say. However I had also been doing some crafts and spoke about that a bit. I didn't finish editing. No point to, it wasn't interesting enough to even want to finish.

I'll probably rework it into a more craft centric one when I finish what I was working on. I don't feel like working on it though.

It was my sister's birthday Saturday. The few friends she invited cancelled on her. Even the girl who my sister went across the country for her birthday trip with. It was so depressing. Why do modern day people flake out on plans so much? We decorated and celebrated ourselves Sunday. My mom even made a really cool cake that looked like a candle. 

Wednesday is me and my boyfriend's anniversary and we still don't have plans. How annoying. Honestly making plans for anything between us is kind of a pain because he's the type who if left alone would sit in his room all day. Doesn't really like much. I guess that's just one of the pains of Gen Z society. If people aren't pretending to like things for a tiktok persona, they just sit around hobbyless.

BORN TO DIE

WORLD IS A FUCK

苺 Kill Em All 2004

.☙🕁♤🕁❧.

Sorry for being gone!

Sorry for going m.i.a and not posting for like 7 months. Life is crazy. The holidays were crazy. 

    After the new year, my mom had put me into a trade school for sterile processing, so that's what was taking most of my time. It was very miserable and I had 2 different infections in the 5 or so months I was there (dirty ahh building, long story). I cried semi regularly.

Then I quit in like May or June or something (again, very miserable). So then I was depressed, but that got better eventually. I wound up bumbling around wondering what the hell to do for a while. I almost got back into art (didn't), and I learned some html and made a website suitable to host it. It's a little janky, but it's fine. Then I was depressed again and then did a little writing (most of it unpublished, but I'll post more when I'm done). Then I attempted game development again, but I didn't get too far. I'll come back to it eventually. Honorable mentions to my sewing and crafting stint. Maybe I'll make a YouTube video about it later.

More over, posting here is a little hard, because I kind of soft-locked myself into a corner with the way I've themed it.

    Long story short, I was:

• super busy (started trade school)
• burnt out 
• sick and miserable
• just miserable lol

ACK!

Screenshot of a scrapped "New Years" post.

Oh yeah, and in the time I've been gone, I had a whole mohawk, and then it grew out some. Barely any pics, bcuz I was sad lmao.

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