If you've ever tried to make any sort of name for yourself on the internet, you'll understand how difficult it is to keep your head above the sea of endless posts. Google crawls so many websites with huge blogs of perfectly manufactured walls of text. Even on individual social medias, you have to fight against the armies of people with similar names and posts.
Obviously, originality is key, but too much originality will put you on a desert island all alone with no followers. Keeping an eye on what's new and trendy will keep you associated with things that are currently being searched, but then you risk being seen as desperate for clout. And being seen as overly desperate is a death sentence. It's a pain, isn't it?
When you google (or Bing) my name, I often only come up in 5-9th place. The results above me are all related to the anime Bleach!! When I started using the "Ichigo_42ga3" (and related) handles, Bleach wasn't running. Then it came back! Even worse, one of the songs the show uses is even called Monochrome! ARGH!!! How misfortunate! .·°՞(≧□≦)՞°·. ueeehh~ ueehhh~
Linking across my socials helps a ton though. Here's a tip: Every YouTube video is it's own page, and is indexed as so. Use that description box wisely!!!
You see the title. I've been trying to stay on my video grindset. I'm not that good at it, BUT go watch the videos that I have posted onto my YouTube channel, ICHIGO MONOCHROME. Nya rawr.
The videos are kind of rant rambles about fandom craziness, or whatever. I don't know, I was just going off the top of my head.
In that first video with the Fairly Odd Parents thumbnail, I was just stunned at the audacity of the stalker mindset. The pure delusion that comes with being so obsessed with a child cartoon character, that it wills you to repeatedly DM and then email the voice actress your unhinged love manifesto. Not a confession towards the actress mind you, an angry message declaring your LOVE FOR THE CHILD CHARACTER, and your offense at her insinuation that said character could love another cartoon her own age.
The other two (1)(2) was true, from the heart, dissatisfaction with the state of horror media commentary. Specifically when it comes to the sloppy, immature way people talk about amateur projects.
It's so annoying seeing these shitty copy-paste thumbnails on shitty copy-paste videos just dogging on a highschoolers art project. Whether it's a webseries, a video game mod, a fangame, whatever, there is simply no reason to be going AVGN mode in your hobby critique video. Especially not when it's so painfully obvious by the cracking, theater kid voice work, that it was made by a KID.
Like, we get it. one-hit Slenderman monsters aren't original. They aren't fun to play against because there isn't any learning curve. The monster designs are boring.
BUT... These. Are. Not. Professional.
This isn't triple A $90 gaming. This is a zero dollar Minecraft mod that doesn't even take 10 minutes of your life. By forcing yourself to make a mountain out of a mole hill for content, you forced yourself to suffer for who knows how much longer just to collect footage. Forced yourself to sit there thinking about it, writing about it, editing a thumbnail for it. And for what? To scrape content off the back of a nerdy child? As stupid as it sounds, it's the dumb things that get under teenagers skin. Mfers will tear them down, call them cringe, say their creation is the dumbest shit they've ever played, all for the chance of a mediocre algorithm bump.
And then it doesn't even work because they're posting low quality content in an oversaturated genre with an exchangeable video thumbnail.
Let the damn kids make their stupid nextbots and fnaf clones. This is the practice run. Let them play.
Okay, okay, okay. So I've been gone. It's fine. We're fine. It's not like I was on my ass doing nothing the whole time. I was bouncing between a bunch of different projects during my absence. Like uhhhhhh, some writing, some social stuffs, ermmmm, I drawed some, and did some 3d modeling, and you know... things.
Okay jokes aside, I have been uploading to my YouTube channel. It's mostly just me talking/ranting about some things, but I do have some variety content planned for the future.
Here's the video I made criticizing Crunchyroll for how they run their shitty streaming service. Money grubbing POSs.
Making videos isn't as hard as it used to be for me, because I used to get so burnt out trying to figure out what the hell I'm doing. Talking isn't as hard for me anymore either. It comes a lot more naturally now, and I'm better at articulating my self. My voice doesn't get as hoarse after recording as it used to. It's a little difficult still, but I'm getting a lot better! I've even hit 200 subs!!!@! We're so back baby!!!!!!
All that is good, but I should really start going back and making posts for the stuff I was up to during the gap. Ehhhhhh but I'm still tired most of the time though... Why me??? And I've been thinking about posting to other video sites to cross promote my content in more places. One of them being SpectraVideo on PeerTube, but I need preapproval to make an account there (to prevent spam). If I knew enough Japanese to subtitle my videos in Japanese, I could try posting to NicoNicoDouga, but I'm nowhere near that level yet...
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I just finished reading Wind in the Willows by Kenneth Grahame, and its probably one of my top five books of all time.
For a long while I thought I just wasn't into books anymore, because I don't like reading YA or "adult people books". I guess I kind of forgot that I could just read literally anything else LMAO. So after going through a multi year reading drought (I'm not counting manga, or comics, because they really are mostly pictures. Not sorry.) I just said fuck it, and started reading children's books again. Specifically older books with length and some complexity. Honestly it has me reading almost as much as I used to when I was a kid.
I like fantasy, but all the YA fantasy I came across was so boiled chicken dry I couldn't do it. There is a severe lack of whimsy + I don't like books about sexy werewolves/elves/vampires/demigod fighting over a self insert white girl.Also there's a weird "Don't say Zombie" problem where the fantasy mfers are all vampyrs (2 syllables) and fæfollk. I can't stand that shit. Like please stop trying to force uniqueness in your marketable romantasy, we all know you demons are skimming the book for the sex parts anyway.
Lmao back on topic. I like nice things with animal characters so I guess it was natural that I'd find Wind in the Willows eventually. I don't remember if I found the animated version on YouTube first while watching Little Bear, or on Pinterest. I've seen the book cover with Pan above the title thought it looked cool, then eventually I made a Pinterest board full of Beatrix Potter, Winnie the Pooh, Calico Critters, and stuff like that, so illustrations from the book started coming up. And I have to say, the illustrations are GREAT. Like there have been plenty of different illustrators (old book) and honestly, they're all really well done. So once I hit this year's "I need to read more books" kick, I knew what I was reading first.
WARNING! There will be some spoilers past the jump so be alert.
I finally uploaded to my YouTube channel. I'm trying out a minimal editing approach because I lowkey hate editing my vids. Go watch it!!!
But yeah, like I was saying in the video, people in 2025 are just ridiculously rude. Idk if was the pandemic preventing these types of people from getting hit in the mouth for acting this way in public, or what, but the Regina George wannabe bullshit needs to gtfo.
Way too many people think that, because they can be their own one-man paparazzi on the internet, that they can terrorize the general populace with their diva complex. Like, you're not a celebrity, you're a sociopath, borderline delusional, and completely insane.
I mentioned that case with the lady who shot her manager, because she thought she was "out of pocket", because the manager sent her home twice in 2 days.
Like you really can't tolerate rejection THAT BAD, that you KILLED somebody? Over a job? At McDonald's?
Was the clown fuckin you? was the Ronald Mc D good? Cuz there ain't no fuckin way that you stab some lady MULTIPLE TIMES over some mid ass McDonald's pay. Go apply for Burger King. And come to find out, she finna get hit with a premeditated murder charge because she FILMED HERSELF CRASHING OUT ON TIKTOK. Making threats!
Another (way less insane) example, some years back this Starbucks barista on TikTok made this dumb post talking about "Get ready with me to make this man his milk shake at 7am." with the nastiest attitude ever. JUST PUT THE FRIES IN THE BAG, BECKY! GET OFF THE CROSS! She really posted that shit like people would agree with her. Everybody in the comments was flaming her. Stay in your lane, and run bro his Mocha-Frappe-Fucking-Whatever, with his 3 shots of heart attack juice, 7.25$ Regina George.
The cognitive dissonance of people with a grandiose sense of self, and cog in the machine lives, needs to be studied.
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